Zindagi - Pal - Jeena

Mein muskura raha aur tumko hasa raha tha,

Zindagi ke beete palo ke gamo ko bhula raha tha,

Aaj tumhare saath aur paas nazar aa raha tha,

Zindagi ke beete palo ki tanhaiya chupa raha tha,

Har gadi aur pal har baat bata raha tha,

Zindagi ke beete palo ki sachai se mann bhatka raha tha,

Mein issi koshish mein jeeta aur jeeta ja raha tha….

Jitna dur bhagna cha raha tha beete palo se,

Utna unko kareeb pa raha tha,

Har beeta pal ek haseen sapna nazar aa raha tha,

Har dost zindagi ke pal yaadgaar bana raha tha,

Har dushman mujhe tadpa raha tha,

Sach pe jhooth hawi hota ja raha tha,

Zindagi ke beete palo ko aaj saamne pa raha tha…

Zindagi ke beete palo ko ek kahaani bana raha tha...

Mein unke sahare jeeta aur jeeta ja raha tha…

Naya dor naye pal nayi rahe bana raha tha,

Zindagi ke beete palo se sitare chura raha tha,

Nayi baate Nayi chahate suna rha tha,

Zindagi ke beete palo ki aahate bacha raha tha,

Naya path naye raaste bun raha tha,

Zindagi ke beete palo ki yaadein sun raha tha...

Naye mitr aur humdum bana raha tha,

Zindagi ke beete palo ke dosto ka saath pa raha tha...

Mein unke sahare jeeta aur jeeta ja raha tha....

MY LIFE – OTHER’S WISH

Was doing scrutiny of other’s life

When my life itself was scrutinize....

Was thinking of failure in other’s life

When my life itself was a failure...

Was studying about pain in other’s life

When my life itself was painful...

Was seeing the suspense in other’s life

When my life itself was suspensefull...

Was noting the mistake in other’s life

When my life itself was full of mistakes...

Was checking the price tag in other’s life

When my life itself was cheap...

Was trying to bring light in other’s life

When my life itself was in dark...

Was cleaning the mess in other’s life

When my life itself was messy...

Was bringing colors in other’s life

When my life itself was black and white...

Was changing fortunes of other’s life

When my life itself needed change...
Was providing love in other’s life

When my life itself had none of it...
Was giving company in other’s life

When my life itself was lonely...

I smiled for others, I cried for others,

I worked for others, I prayed for others,

Did what life wanted me to do,

I just lived for others and will die for others.

LONELINESS IS ONLY MINE

I was a lonely soul with eyes only on my goal. Weekdays were spent working in the so-called multinational company and weekends by attending classes for MBA. Routine of life was perfect, just follow same thing week and week again with each month going by. Never even had a feeling that what was going to come will change my life upside down. Now I feel bad why god did not give me power to see the future. At least I would have not gone through a phase of Love and emotions to be lonely again. She started it all, the friendship, the messaging, calling and not to forget making me to remember her all the time. On weekends she tried to find reasons to be with me, spent time with me. She wanted me to appreciate her beauty, her nature and everything she used to do. She wanted me to call her in the morning so that I will be the first person whose voice she listen everyday. She will become angry if I do not call her. She will call me again and again just to know what I was doing and to inform what she was doing. We used to chat for long hours. Time use to pass like a blink. Each moment of life was spent thinking about her. Don’t know what magic she had done on me that I was also enjoying the attention I was getting. I was loving the feeling of being loved.

I got a opportunity to go to abroad from my company for working on something new. I grabbed the opportunity with both hands. I moved their for three months. She became sad after listening that I had to go away from her. But she was happy for my future. She took a promise from me to call her everyday and tell her how my life was going in a new place faraway from her. I used to call her just to listen to her voice and to see her smile. To see her happy used to make me happy. Everything was just perfect in life.

But when you feel everything is perfect in life than only something happens which provide the much needed jolt to take you out from the dream. She called me one day and told she was going to marry a person whom her parents have chosen for her. After saying this also, she told that I was the loveliest person she has met in his life and she can share everything with me. She even told me she loved me but she wanted to see her parents happy. She just moved on after saying this thinking everything will be normal in my life again. Who can tell her it’s not a game between friends where even after losing also you can be happy, just to see your friend win it. I stopped contacting her as nothing was left for me to say. But she calls me and scolds me for not being in contact with her. What’s my mistake I can’t contact her, it makes me remember the time I want to forget. I don’t want to feel like missing her again. I am happy being Lonely so why to spoil my happiness for something which cannot be mine.

I started being lonely and I end being lonely. Only one thing, which never left me, was my loneliness. I can say “LONELINESS IS ONLY MINE”.

Feeling of Déjà vu

I thought of writing something but hands started shivering.

Sweat started to come out from the palm. 

All the things I was holding started to slip out.

The wind blew the paper away, pen was lying on the floor looking at me saying to lift him.

But my body had no movement. I was just watching the paper fly and pen lie on the floor.

Words never found the medium to come-out.

It was like a feeling of Deja-vu had gripped me.

It was like I already had experienced what I was going through.

It was Like I already knew this day was to come.

My only mistake I was not prepared for it.

And will never be....

It will come back.... Making me to have Déjà vu Again....